This has to be a dream....

I'm still hoping and praying that Aaron and I breaking up is all just one HORRIBLE nightmare.

It's been one week now... and I'm almost ready to give up on waiting for him. I'm terrified that he won't come around. I'm terrified that he and I will never be together again. I'm such a mess without him - I have such a hard time doing normal everyday activities. I'm just... not human without him.

Without him, my million dollar family is ruined :(

I just want him back. No one can understand how badly I want him back and why. I'm not complete without him. Our family was SO close to being complete. A dad, mom, son and daughter. Now, my family is missing 25% of it's heart.

Our daughter has his nose. I realized today when I had my ultrasound. That's when I also realized I can't wait around forever for him. I need him to be ready for a family and willing to be involved now, or never. I can't just wait around for him to be ready. Even if he's not *ready*, why can't we be together and grow together? I could help him =(

I just wish this was all a horrible dream...

Future Reminders!

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Wyatt would like to introduce...

His baby sister... Selena Isabelle

Dear Aaron

You came first.
We are now engaged, we have a son, and our second child is on the way. But, before them, you came first.
Even though we started dating when Wyatt was already here, you still came first.
I knew you were the guy for me before Wyatt ever came along, it's seeing you and him together that makes it more obvious to me.
You came first, you come first, and you will always be first. You are the most impostant part of the little family we have started. How can there be a family without a mommy and a daddy?
You come first. Remember that...
You come first.

TOMORROW

Xavier Damien or Selena Isabelle TOMORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRROW!!!