Please Don't Come...

I am actually starting to hate what's comming up.

Birthdays... they're supposed to be a fun, joyous time... I wish mine wouldn't come this year.

On March 20th, (5 days before my birthday) I have a Settlement Meeting with Lloyd. Sadly, no matter how much it upsets me, he gets visitations. I don't understand why. He's never done anything for Wyatt. Also, for every birthday since I can remember, I've been disapointed. Aaron is claiming that he is going to get a LapTop... I wish he wouldn't say that. It just gets my hopes up, then I have a higher place I have to fall from when I get nothing.

I'm tryingto save up $250 so I can buy myself a new iPod. Mine is offically junk. It dies after you turn it off, even when it has full battery. So I can listen to 7 songs in the morning on the bus, get to school, turn it off, and it's dead as soon as I turn it off. It's retarded.

Tomorrow I have a meeting with my Lawyer to start getting me prepaired for the Settlement Meeting. The only good thing about this... the visitations get to be at my Uncle's house, so atleast someone who DOES know how to look after a child will be there.

Meh.

I have to learn how to blog things out of my system... =/

Completly Heartbreaking

Well... I got a call from my lawyer yesterday asking me a date for a Setelment Case... so we can settle the Visitation Rights. Now, it is very clear that Lloyd actually gets so see Wyatt... I'm not ready for that. He doesn't deserve to see him. I have been the one doing (and buying) everything damn thing!! It really does break my heart. The Visitations are going to be at my Aunt's house... and Lloyd is probably going to try and get it so they're every damn night. My Aunt has 6 kids (3 of her own & 3 foster), she ha a life. I go to school, I have homework... he does nothing.

First Entry

My first entry, hopefully I'll actually write often in here... Lord knows I'm not good with Diary-type things. Finals are comming up - Studying is hard with a toddler.
Today after school I'm going to the Funeral Showing for Aaron's Uncle, I'm very nervous. The first time I'm meeting most of his family & it's at his Uncle's funeral... Ugg.
Susan comes tonight, hopefully she won't be mad when I tell her it has to be a quick visit - I think she'll understand.
School has been boring lately - ISU time + mine keeps getting screwed up. UGG! *only one year left*